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Thursday, January 15, 2009 ( 11:33 PM )
over pass few day, iv been thinking thru. all that is going on these few weeks makes me wonder...are those words that you spoke to me of on news years day real...or has sth changed?
i keep trying and trying and with each conversation i get more and more dejected.the feeling of despair is eating into me...i cant take it anymore thats why im writing here.even thou you said those words...your actions doesnt reflect what you said...i really dunno mayb im asking too much or...i dunno
from then i tried to change...i changed to be 'me' and really me...nv asking ppl anything...but...what iv heard just throw me into a state of confusion...mayb its me...mayb i really just cant that 'him outta my mind...
so insecure...